I belong to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints

Last Sunday (the 20th) was our stake conference. It was amazing!! We were so blessed to have one of our churches General Authority's  come. Elder Richard G. Scott!! oh man was it good. He was nothing like I expected him to be.

Instead of having a talk prepared he called people out of the audience, he sent microphones around so anyone could ask questions, and he was hilarious. SO GOOD!! 

Listening to an Aposile of the Lord bare testimony of Jesus Christ was UNDENIABLE!!. The Spirit was so strong and so beautiful, I don't think anyone left with dry eyes. I know I didn't. 

I know and am so greatful that the True church is on the earth, I know that Heavenly Father is real, He loves me, and listens and answers my prayers. I know the Atonment is real, Christ didn't just suffer for my sins, he suffered every heart ach, disappointment, and sorrow I have ever had, He knows me and loves me. The plan of salvation is real, it really is the plan of happiness. I am so blessed to be sealed to my best friend, and to know that my family will be together forever. 

I know that the church is true, it is undeniable, and I love it.

P.S. Elder Scott said "make sure to smile" we don't want people thinking our church meetings are funerals. He was so funny.

Comparisons

I like many others in this life compare things around me. 

I compare ads

stores

clothes 

brands

food

hairstyles

music

the work that I do at the mortgage company as well as in the salon

just about everything. 

I am finding this is concept has seeped into my new roll as a mother. 

I see my friends, family and the media around me and I just think 

"man I am failing already"

*first a fact about me 

I LOVE reality tv!!

I think it really is REAL!
Eldon makes fun of this little fact.
I love the Jonas', and Guilanna and Bill.

While watching Guilianna and Bill they showed their new little boy.
He was 3 weeks old, he was holding his head so well and smiling so much.
This made me cry!! Sitting in my little home holding my sweet baby who at that time was 3 weeks old.
My sweet girl didn't smile that much at 3 weeks. I was positive I was doing something wrong, why was my baby not smiling like theirs?
I was doing everything I could and yet my baby hated me.
I was failing as a mother, by child was destined to be unhappy forever.

I look at the world around me and I judge myself against those I see.
In my head I know this is just crazy, but then my emotions kick in and well.....

I have found that if I truely look at the way I am raising my child I am doing well, I have never been a mother before, so I don't really know what I am doing. I can only compare myself to those around me
I have had amazing examples that I can strive to be like.

Conversations

Oh how I love my husband, I love how he thinks......

M: what do you want to do for New Years this year?
E: we can't do anything we have a baby!!
M: just because we have a baby doesn't mean we can't do anything, ever...
E: yes it does!!

I can not get enough of him! I love how he makes me laugh always!!