I like many others in this life compare things around me.
I compare ads
stores
clothes
brands
food
hairstyles
music
the work that I do at the mortgage company as well as in the salon
just about everything.
I am finding this is concept has seeped into my new roll as a mother.
I see my friends, family and the media around me and I just think
"man I am failing already"
*first a fact about me
I LOVE reality tv!!
I think it really is REAL!
Eldon makes fun of this little fact.
I love the Jonas', and Guilanna and Bill.
While watching Guilianna and Bill they showed their new little boy.
He was 3 weeks old, he was holding his head so well and smiling so much.
This made me cry!! Sitting in my little home holding my sweet baby who at that time was 3 weeks old.
My sweet girl didn't smile that much at 3 weeks. I was positive I was doing something wrong, why was my baby not smiling like theirs?
I was doing everything I could and yet my baby hated me.
I was failing as a mother, by child was destined to be unhappy forever.
I look at the world around me and I judge myself against those I see.
In my head I know this is just crazy, but then my emotions kick in and well.....
I have found that if I truely look at the way I am raising my child I am doing well, I have never been a mother before, so I don't really know what I am doing. I can only compare myself to those around me
I have had amazing examples that I can strive to be like.
Eldon makes fun of this little fact.
I love the Jonas', and Guilanna and Bill.
While watching Guilianna and Bill they showed their new little boy.
He was 3 weeks old, he was holding his head so well and smiling so much.
This made me cry!! Sitting in my little home holding my sweet baby who at that time was 3 weeks old.
My sweet girl didn't smile that much at 3 weeks. I was positive I was doing something wrong, why was my baby not smiling like theirs?
I was doing everything I could and yet my baby hated me.
I was failing as a mother, by child was destined to be unhappy forever.
I look at the world around me and I judge myself against those I see.
In my head I know this is just crazy, but then my emotions kick in and well.....
I have found that if I truely look at the way I am raising my child I am doing well, I have never been a mother before, so I don't really know what I am doing. I can only compare myself to those around me
I have had amazing examples that I can strive to be like.
You DO have amazing examples around you, but also, PLEASE remember that you are the BEST mother your baby could ever have. Don't compare so much that it brings you down. It's hard to be surrounded by supermoms and I struggle to feel like I am "as good" as the other moms. But then I remember...only I know my baby as well as I do and I love her more than anyone else.
ReplyDeleteYou are an excellent mother, Eldon is a great dad, and you have a blessed and wonderful family. Don't you forget it.